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She pulled me aside and said “You are ready.” I knew what she was talking about and had silently been dreading this day. She wanted me to do what she had done less than a year ago – to facilitate a group of women from our church in their walk with Christ. She wanted me to step out of the boat with my eyes focused on Him. “I’m not ready,” I said to myself.
Our pastor had called for us to create 100 more small groups (called Connect Groups) like the one I was part of, to add to the already 190+ groups. He explained how important it was to develop relationships with others who had a love of Christ – to encourage each other in our journey. He explained that people were less likely to fall away if they had a connection with someone – or a group of people – who held them accountable and supported them. He was absolutely right. I had experienced this first-hand in my own life.
“It’s time for you to come out of your comfort zone and start doing what He is calling you to do,” she said. I hated her words, but deep down I knew this is exactly why I love her so much – she encourages me, she challenges me, she prays for me, and she loves me. I really didn’t want to accept her words. I wasn’t ready. Even though all of the whispers from Him said I was ready, my flesh told me I wasn’t. So I pulled away – I retracted into my shell.
What if I fail? What if they hate me? What if they come once and then never come back? I wasn’t ready for the possible failure, the impending disappointment, and the potential rejection. I just wasn’t ready. For almost 6 weeks I hid myself from my sisters in Christ. I kept silent. I mulled over it all, spending hundreds of minutes listening to my soul and my mind argue with each other.
I am ready. With Him by my side, I am ready. I just need to focus on Him. Anything He leads me to I can face. I can do all things through Christ. If I fail in the process, He will use my failure as a stepping stone to greater things. Even though my flesh doesn’t feel ready, He says I am. So I will be obedient. I will listen to the Holy Spirit. I will step out of the boat. I will focus on Him. I will come out of my comfort zone in His name and do what He calls me to do.
For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.
Philippians 4:13 (NLT)